Have you ever had one of those days? You know the day in which everything seems to go oposite of the way you want it to go? How about one of those days where everything you do ends up right; a rock star day. Sometimes, that's just life.
Those of you that know me, know that I have a small family run dairy goat farm. Loch Bonnie Farm in Lake Isabella, CA, you can find us on Facebook. For anyone who knows about goats, we are right in the middle of kidding season. Little fluffy goat kids with floppy ears just running, jumping and bouncing all over the place. Well, on Loch Bonnie Farm, it is no different. We raise nubian milk goats. We have two does; Hannah and Annabelle, and four kids; Christoff, Olaf, Sven and Ailsa (Elsa).
Now let me give you a little bit of background. My family is of Celtic descent along with a smattering of others in there. My wife is Scottish, Firebaugh (Fever-boff) and MacKrill on her mother's side and I have a LOT of Scottish and other Celtic on both sides of my family; Ridings (English from the region of Reeding south of London), Buchanan and Erskine from both of my parents as well as Pollock, Fraser of Lovat, Bruce, and Comyn on my mother's side. Of course, I am leaving out a LOT, but these are some of the more well known clans and septs on my mother's side . . . along with Keeling and Crouch (Irish) and Lloyd (Welsh) from my mother. So, to say my family is Celtic is an understatement. We are official members/clansmen of Clan Fraser of Lovat so the banner of our farm carries the tartan and badge of Clan Fraser. We live in Lake Isabella, CA, Isabella mean beautiful. The Celtic version of Beautiful is Bonnie, thus Loch Bonnie Farm. Most of my Scottish ancestry is from ancient Normans and Scandinavians. Through DNA tests, I am predominantly Fennoscandia meaning much of my ancestry comes from Finnish and Scandinavian ancestors. So, the theme on our farm, at least in the naming of our animals is Celtic and Scandinavian. Thus the names Annabelle, Hannah, Sven, Christoff and Olaf.
So, just a few days ago both of our girls went into labor . . . at the same time. I was home alone. My wife and son was at work, my daughter was out of town having a family day with her husband and kids, so I was alone. I texted some friends of mine with: Um, I may need some help! BOTH girls are in labor. Now, let me stop right here and say how much I love living in a small community with good people and amazing friends. The dropped what they were doing on their farm and headed out from the other side of the valley to come help me. They asked if I needed anything and I told them what supplies I was lacking. They stopped at the feed store on the way and in record 30 minute time were by my side. Fast forward and hour and Hanna had given birth to three beautiful kids, 2 boys and 1 girl. It was Annabelle's turn. She was in distress. Annabelle is actually a little small. So much so that we waited a year to breed her. Finally we have a nose, then the rest of the head and then she stopped. Exhausted, Annabelle couldn't go any further. We did everything we could to coax her into pushing again. 5 minutes, 10 minutes, 20 minutes goes by of her struggling and no progress. With my daughter, now home, and I on the front end trying to keep her still, focused and standing, our friends John and Eve were on the business end. With Eve holding onto the kids head and neck to keep it from sucking back in, John had to finally go in and try to find the front legs so the kid could actually make it's way out. An hour later, Annabelle had given birth, but the baby wasn't breathing, We cleared it's airways, pressed on it's little chest to try to get it to breathe. Finally, Sven was breathing and sneezing and making noise. John, Even Ashleigh and I were cover in, well birthing stuff. Poor Eve got the worst of it . . . LOL! But, the babies were all healthy, mothers were happy and nursing.
Today I went out to check on them in the afternoon. Of course, I find any excuse and lull in the day to go out and hold and play with the babies. I had left a folding chair leaning against the goat's stable. I heard a weak and feeble cry. I look down and see Sven on the ground with the one of the bars of the chair across his neck. I frantically pick up the chair and grab Sven up in my arms. Weakly crying and limp, he was already gone. I knew it. But, I have a very soft heart. So instead of instantly giving up, I tried CPR. For 20 minutes I gave the little guy CPR. No improvement. In fact, he was worse, more limp, more weak, almost dead and gasping for air. I knew what I had to do, but I didn't want to do it. Eventually, I wrapped my hands around his little snout and helped him along. Of all the animals I've ever had to put down, he was the most difficult.
I just lost a friend recently. He battled for more than 2 months on life support trying to regain life. A little over a week ago his family decided to take him off of life support and sing praises to Jesus as he went quietly and peacefully on to his eternal home in the presence of God the Father and His son, our Lord, Jesus Christ.
Death is difficult. Whether a person is a Christian, of some other faith that believes in an afterlife or an unbeliever, death is difficult. For my friend and his family, though I am sad that he is gone, I can rejoice in the fact that I will see him again when I meet my Lord.
There are no accidents, no coincidences. Everything happens for a purpose whether it is by God's design or allowance, everything happens and fits into God's plan. I feel like it's my fault that Sven is dead. I left the chair out in the pasture because I was tired and lazy, then I forgot about it. Ultimately, it was my hand that ended his life. That hand that helped deliver him and that was supposed to provide and protect him.
Sometimes, That's just life. Death must occur in order for life to rise. Next month we start planting. The seed must first die in order to bring life. Though death is sometimes difficult to deal with, we have to pick ourselves up, learn from the situation and keep living life. I mean, Sven, was going to end up in the freezer anyway. But, when that time came, I would be OK because that was his purpose. I'm sad, I shed a few tears, but the other animals and most importantly, my family, needs me to keep going, keep preaching, keep farming. And for the will of God and the love of my family, I will do just that. Because, sometimes, ?That's just life.























